Tid Bits

It's past time for a daydream. A sweet, innocent, faithful introspect into why I am, awake...



In the morning hours, I tend to remain dissillusioned. I'm far from chipper and would rather be alone. I am not hindered by the side of the bed I happen upon departure, but rather my state of mind. My mind chooses seclusion.



...."And who am I
To give you what you need?
Well, im learning
Just learning
Learning how to live and..

To bear the weight
And push into the sky
It's easier to lie"



It reruns in my mind like needle pricked falacy. I'd give almost anything to have known things hadn't ended badly. Running seemed so much easier than facing...you. It's a pain that stays with me. In my dreams. Daydreams even.



People speak of empty voids where love used to reside. My void is only self-inflicted. Love. I've got so much more than one person should ever be allowed. I am truly happy. But my void is lack of patience, lack of selflessness. A void that houses my inner demons. Luckily for me, it's refillible.



Smile because tomorrow is not a promise. Thank whatever creator or entity you have within you; simply because you have today. James M. Barrie once said, "Life is a long lesson in humility." Humble yourself. Focus on helping someone else, and in the process, life just may better you.



***Break Free***

For Izik

Nothing can console me like a dose of you.



I came into this with a broken heart and shattered expectations. A young girl on the verge of everything, reduced to shameful. The soothing echos of your voice fell from the sky...and I stood, reborn.



Flashbacks of waves crashing down on the shores of my life, each one includes you. Sing alongs in the moonlight, I fell in love each time. Drive into the dawn...once more for old times sake.



A song. My song. No one ever made me feel so real before, and the echos return. We were made for eachother. Me on my mountain, and you climbing the highest peak to meet me at the top. I miss you so much it stings sometimes- bring me back.



And still you remain, oceans away; Feeling change circulate in you veins. You are mine and I yours, but they say: If you love something, set it free.

Sweet Like Candy

...To my soul

When you care, you care genuinely

She said

It pierced me

Puncturing my flesh

Allowing emotion to drip down my back

Like the juice

From a ripened peach...sweet.

Balance the world on my shoulders

She said

You expose me

Unearthing my fears

Holding my breath long enough to understand

Like a poem

From your soul to mine...deep.

Let Me Catch My Breath

I often wake up falling

In and out of fantasies

Following a rabbit into its' rabit hole

Not knowing where I went wrong.

I often miss you intensly

Grocery shopping is not an opportuned time

Dinner will always be ready

Call me next year.

I often want to believe

There's so much good in affirmation

Dodging the nay-sayers

Still no sleep.

*And I write because I'd rather spill words than tears, but my breaths all gone even though I'm still here*

Love Ridden

Day after day the faces pass by

in a dull haze of light and color-

Everyone rushing in masses of stained humanity

Their faces pale splotches of blurred color amidst the multicolored swirl-

Streaming like a river down the streets

and over bridges built for burning...

Merging

Flowing

They dash up empty allyways

Their intricately colored scarves snapping in the chill breeze-

I stumble as I step off the sidewalk and into the brightly running gutter

Pushing through the crowd as I

transverse the crosswalk...

A piece of trash sweeps across the street

rattling hollowly

I frivolously gaze up,

for no good reason...

except perhaps the clattering of traffic-

The wind blows the loose hair out of my face

...and there you are...

Your eyes suddenly burn in luminescence

above the harsh voices of living

Everything is still; the gray masses recede until

We're alone on the empty street

One step at a time, you grow closer

...until I am consumed by only your face.

Then abruptly you pass;

a siren wails sharply,

and the multitude leaps into action-

Yet I turn;

Your gaze penetrates-

The masses...

and I can only see YOU.